2nd quarter into the new year, can I even call it the new year anymore? On a side note tho, I had a really really good week for the beginning of April. I had bliss, a sense of belonging a sort of epiphany, I haven't felt in awhile. It wasn't anything major but a feeling of being whole again. Before my brains messed it up of course, whats new right.
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I'm going to address this one last time to myself and to you (I know you still read this). Don't tell me to love myself, when you once swore to fix me yet left me hanging because well, humans. Don't tell me I'm attention seeking when all I did was put myself out there for you. You wanted some sort of alliance didn't you. Since you guys are so tight right, do you want me to burst the bubble for you? I won't because I'm not you. Dimming another's light doesn't and will never make your light shine any brighter. It's sad and pathetic, really.
I do admit, I often, well more than often mess up my own life with unfathomable decisions and choices. I'm not a saint but I know my limits and correct them when I screw up. This is what life is about, experiencing and correcting. I'm trying to be a better person, believe it a not. I try really hard. Ok this a whole new topic with no relevance to my original thought so I'm going to stop myself now.
2nd quarter into the new year, can I even call it the new year anymore? On a side note tho, I had a really really good week for the beginning of April. I had bliss, a sense of belonging a sort of epiphany, I haven't felt in awhile. It wasn't anything major but a feeling of being whole again. Before my brains messed it up of course, whats new right.
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I'm going to address this one last time to myself and to you (I know you still read this). Don't tell me to love myself, when you once swore to fix me yet left me hanging because well, humans. Don't tell me I'm attention seeking when all I did was put myself out there for you. You wanted some sort of alliance didn't you. Since you guys are so tight right, do you want me to burst the bubble for you? I won't because I'm not you. Dimming another's light doesn't and will never make your light shine any brighter. It's sad and pathetic, really.
I do admit, I often, well more than often mess up my own life with unfathomable decisions and choices. I'm not a saint but I know my limits and correct them when I screw up. This is what life is about, experiencing and correcting. I'm trying to be a better person, believe it a not. I try really hard. Ok this a whole new topic with no relevance to my original thought so I'm going to stop myself now.
